Who's Journal?

ugh!

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 17:21:24 GMT

Livejournal gives me gas!

Guess Who!

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 08:32:20 GMT

I'm back and going to live journal it all up in this biotch!

Tommorrows Thanksgiving

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 08:08:06 GMT

Gobble! Gobble! Gobble! GOO!!!!

Zombie Attack Survival Test!

Tue, 16 May 2006 19:52:07 GMT

Official Survivor
Congratulations! You scored 73%!

Whether through ferocity or quickness, you made it out. You made the right choice most of the time, but you probably screwed up somewhere. Nobody's perfect, at least you're alive.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 20% on survivalpoints

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Drowning

Sat, 13 May 2006 21:21:56 GMT

I'm drowning in nothing
Nothing real
Nothing left
Nothing
I'm losing myself
Sinking deeper down

Silently leaving
This behind
Nothing left but me

I'm hating myself
Hating myself
Everyone hates me now

Everyone has changed
Everything has changed
Everyone has changed
But me

Yay!

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 22:23:50 GMT

Jess is my best friend and I like that! :)

lol

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 12:52:53 GMT

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Religious	\|\|\|\|	16%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|	16%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|	16%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	64%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|	16%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%

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Sadness :(

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 17:15:42 GMT

So last night I went with jess to get her snake put down. I felt so bad. I wish there was something I could've done. I was doing good until they went to take the snake away and jess looked at her one last time and said "I Love you". Then I almost started crying but luckily Im a hardcore Man and didn't lol. I know I should've went to the jungle to find a cure. My poor jess is stressed and sad. Hopefully now since the snake isnt suffering anymore she'll be better.

On a brighter note Im going to get my buisness up soon. I've got a shipment comingn on Tuesday and another sometime early next week. Hopefully my praying mantis eggsacs will come in (no their not illegal its just beena rumor for over 50 years I read about it on the NJ Wildlife and game endangered species list). Thats crazy I used to thik it was illegal to kill them. doesnt matter anyway cause I'll be helping them and releaseing them into the wild. Since their native to NJ its all good. I'll sell their eggsacs and release live ones its a beautiful thing.

Jess's mom got me a easter basket. That was awesome! I got family guy boxers. Thanks to mandy. I can't wait for my buisness to start and if I do good enough I can get away from staples and me and jess could definitly move out of state like she wants to. I just want to make her happy. Its my main goal in life. She means the world to me. Its a good thing I still keep her interested with my HUGE muscles and washboard abs.

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!

Today was a waste

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 00:30:12 GMT

So last night me and Jess talked and I told her I was going to save my money and not get another ferret and get a outside hutch or something for the quails. She's always right I'm just stubborn.

So today when I woke up I was sooo tired and felt sick at work all day. It sucked. My boss yelled at me all day too. He was telling me it was my fault that the sales numbers where low. Its not possible cause they were the same yesterday (when I wasnt working) as they were today. So obviously its not me. Its not my fault that people come in and buy huge laser printers and don't want to buy attachments because it comes with it. Why would you buy a thousand doller color laser printer that comes with full ink cartridges and want to buy extra cartridges when they do 15,000 pages each and cost $200 each. They could just buy a new machine or something. My boss is dumb and doesnt know whats going on in my department and just wanted to bitch about something today cause he didnt get enough sleep and is fat.

I've been home since 5 and my grandmother picked me up to bring me to deposit my check. My grandma said that we might go to Japan this October. She also told me that the guy jay thats been renting their resturant on the bottom of their building hasnt paid rent in one year. Im gonna fuck him up. He fucking tried to kick me out of there when I was living there and said that he had more of a right to live there cuase he was paying rent and I just found out he never did. He's fucking scamming my grandparents and Im going to tell my parents cause they'll actually do something about it.

Anyway Im waiting for jess to get home she's on her way. I think we're going to do applebees tonight cause I feel like eating something good and having a beer. We'll Im going to play some command and conquer while I wait for her to get here.

What else is new

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 21:48:11 GMT

You Are 98% Evil

You're the most evil person you know.
The devil is even a little scared of you!

How Evil Are You?

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 00:50:29 GMT

Me and Jess are going to the Mindless Show in Philly!

Jess is at work right now and Im home from work today cause my uncles funeral was today. Im sitting home and my little brother and sister are in my room watching animal planet.

Today I found some cool spiders and worms and termites. My brother found a really cool true spider. I made a natural habitat out of an aquarium I bought a while ago. Hopefully the termites will start a colony and I'll have food for my spiderlings.

Today my Jumbo Brown Cotournix Quail eggs came today. 3 where cracked out of 12 so thats not so bad. I have them under a light so they do freeze or anything. I can't wait til they hatch. They supposed to be awesome birds. They'll mimic sounds and gestures. I'm so excited.

I cleaned Jimmies cage today and it was the worst smelling thing in the world. Im definitly not going to let his cage go that long again without being cleaned.

I can't wait til Jess gets home and notices the eggs lol. She wants to feed all of them to her snakes and shit. Everytime I mention quails of something that isnt a snake she is uninterested and just makes comments like quails are food. (like her pets are above all others). whatever Im not feeding the quails to anything cause their cute and cuddly and Im going to be their daddy.

Jess keeps saying stuff like you can't get another ferret or you can't have quails because her mom won't let them into the house. I don't want to live somewhere if Im going to be restricted like a highschool kid again. I don't think I should pay rent if I can't do what I want. Granted it isnt my house but if Im just going to be told to clean my room everyday and can't bring home what I want or told every 5 seconds that I need a car or I need to save money or I need to wipe my ass with supervision then Im just going to stay home where I pay $200 a month and can do whatever I want. I love jess but if I move in to her parents house and I feel trapped or restricted it'll just make things worse instead of better. Whenever I feel like that I flee and don't look back. I've done it many times before and won't hesistate to do it again. I love jess and don't want to ever loose her thats why I don't think this apartment in her parents basement is a good thing.

Anyways, I get paid tommorrow and stuff. 9 to 5 isnt that bad. Atleast I get out early enough to deposit my check. The guy who's selling me my bark scorpions and centipedes hasnt emailed me back yet. I hope its not because I told him to give me some proof so I know Im not getting scamed or anything. I hope it was a serious sale cause I really want to start some of my other breeding projects and start the buisness going.

Me and Jess have been looking at homes farther west in other states and Im so excited. I really want to get out of this shitty state. The houses out there are so much cheaper and nicer than the houses around here. Maybe we can find something nice with a full basement so me and jess can make a nice breeding room and breed in there ;) lol. snakes and inverts anyway. Jess doesnt want to reproduce with me yet lol. I don't know how we would be able to do the things that we do if me and jess had a kid. Im glad we're waiting on that til we're old and have nothing left to do. Our animals are our kids :)

I'm hungry again. I think Im gonna get something to eat and drink and maybe take a aspirin cause I'm starting to get a headache.

EVERYONE GO SEE MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE!!!!!!!!!!!

They need the support so they get bigger and keep making more albums and merch!!!

Yep sounds like me.

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 04:45:34 GMT

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Very High
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	High
Borderline Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
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Me and Jess

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 19:45:08 GMT

Today me and Jess are going to clean her room. Well actually its almost done, but we still have a little more to go. Later we have to get some food for the snakes. I can't wait to feed the boa a rat its gonna ve awesome. Right now me and Jess are watching The Craft I never noticed how old this movie was. Me and Jess cleaned off her shelf so we can make room for the critter keepers. Oh yea I said critter keepers thats right oh and there might be a tarantula in it or some other creature I don't even know what I'll put in it cause Im that random. Well Im going to finish watching this movie and chill with my baby.

Yep

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 02:58:48 GMT

Well I havent updated in a long time. Yep nothing has changed except for life just keeps getting worse. I work 40 hours a week and never get to do anything. When I get home I just get shit from everyone telling me that I'm supposed to be saving my money and that I need a car. They say it like I'm dumb and don't know these things. I want to do drugs again cause then I'll just forget about everything and that would be awesome. I want to fight everyone I see cause Im just angry all the time. My fiance told me last night that Im a asshole and I make her feel like shit and I think my heart broke a little. I havent felt like this since before I moved out of my parents house the first time. I feel trapped. I feel like I have to be polite to everyone and follow everyones rules and obey all laws and go to church and clean my room or I'll get ground and sent to my room without any dinner. This is the reason why I left everything in the first place and went to seaside or lakewood or new york or beachwood or to roam free and be homeless and actually feel relaxed and free like I have a giant weight lifted off my shoulders. You ever see a lion or tiger in a zoo and notice there is just something in their eyes that is gone well thats me something is just gone and Im not me anymore Im just Mike Newman. gay.

I hate Jackie.

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 22:58:20 GMT

I've come to the decision that I no longer consider Jackie my friend. The reason is she's a fucking bitch who likes to talk shit. Jess tells me all the stupid comments she makes about me and Im done. I never did anything to deserve what she says about me. Its not my fault she went and got knocked up by so kid and no longer is going to have a life (if she had one to begin with). Another thing is Jess doesnt even defend me like its ok that Jackie is saying these things about me. Im fucking tired of this shit. I don't care if Jackies box of chocolates for was bigger than the one I gave Jess of if I didnt spend a whole bunch of money on Jess for Valentines day. Also Jackie should stop fucking lieing and saying stuff like oh Mikes ex tasha used to get bladder infections all the time cause she never did. Im wasnt the one fucking more than one person at once Asshole. Im to the point where I don't know what to do. So if you have a problem with me just tell me don't talk shit to my girlfriend. Maybe you want her to break up with me or something so she's miserable and tells you how great you have it I don't know but shut your fucking mouth before I fucking kick you in it.

OH MAN!!

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 03:46:58 GMT

So me and jess are laying in bed right now. We went to the New York Reptile Expo today. It was definitly worth the 9 dollars admission. There was so many different animals for sale there. I've never seen so many snakes in one room before. Jess got herself a jungle carpet python and we found it for cheap. Probably the best price for a jungle carpet python around. There were so many things I wanted there. There was this Goliath Bird Eater Tarantula, I've never seen a spider that big in my whole life. There was some cool bullfrogs and really nice looking pacman frogs too. I decided to get a Uroplatus Henkeli. Its the coolest looking lizard I've ever seen. He's so tame and nice and his tail is shaped like a leaf. Then at the end of the show before we left I bought a Baby Timor Monitor. He's so small. Right now he's a little nervous but he'll get better. Me and Jess are going to go to the Lancaster Reptile Expo next. I'm going to start saveing my money for that and our House fund. I can't wait to go. When me and Jess get a place to live we're going to have a reptile room. Jess just said that she love John Michael Montgomery. LMAO!!! I feel horrible cause she has a bad migraine and she looks so miserable and I hate it when she's like that cause I want to help her but there's nothing that I can do. I guess all I can do is just comfort her thats all. My poor baby is sick :( . Tommorrow when I get home from work Im going to take pics of my new pets and stuff cause they are definitly awesome as hell!! Im going to hold jess and go to sleep cause I have work at 7 in the morning like usual.

OH YEAH BABY!!

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 15:12:09 GMT

You are uber goth. You are dark, mysterious,
morbid, beautiful, in love with death, with
darkness. You enjoy life, you see beauty in
both our joy and desair. You embrace the entire
scene. Ah, I love you, you rock.

What kind of goth are you? (with pics)
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I Miss Jess.

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 02:20:13 GMT

Its almost 9pm and I'm just kinda sitting doing nothing cuase Im really really bored. Today I got paid and it was awesome cause I got a lot of pay. Usually Jess gets out at 7 on fridays but I guess she had new students today or something. Maybe she just doesnt like me anymore because I can't kiss her. Anyway I went to target and spend 80 dollars on some new clothes. I got a awesome new hat it rocks.

Oh Jess just called she did have new students. YAY!! she still likes me. I think I've just been missing her a lot today cause I had a scary dream about her leaving me for somebody else. It seemed so real. So I kinda woke up shaking and looked over and she was asleep next to me so I felt sooooooooooooo much better. She really is the love of my life and I can't wait to marry her it's gonna be more than awesome its gonna be "silly".

Lately my job has been going really really good. My boss said that when it comes time for my review that Im gonna get the best review possible and the best raise. That makes me happy cause I feel so accomplished and I feel like Im actually a responsible person for once in my life Im not worried about whats going to happen to me or if Im going to get money or when Im gonna get my next fix or if the cops are going to find me or where Im going to be staying tommorrow night. I can actually lay back and relax and hold onto the thing that matters to me to most my fiance. I owe everything to jess. She has helped me so much. Its not like she changed me but I have changed in a good way but because I wanted to change for her. I'm so happy I did. Oh man I'm getting married isnt that awesome!!!

Sunday me and Jess are going to the reptile expo and it's going to be the best thing EVER!! I also want to go to that pet shop thats closing down because I want to pick up that 5 1/2 gallon tank and some more lights and shit. Maybe I'll get myself a Pacman frog or something. I really want to get a albino one or a red one. Hopefully I can find a red one cause I heard their rare. I also want to get a tarantula for myself. Maybe I'll get one of those bird eater one's cause they are friggin huge. Maybe I'll just get myself a rose hair too kinda like jeff. I don't know there's just so many possibilities. Well Im going to play a game for a little bit til jess gets here.

OH YEAH BABY!!

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 15:48:55 GMT

She totally said yes and we're totally getting married!!!!! YAY!!!!!

In Pain!

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 23:41:05 GMT

Right now Im in so much pain. Im in pain and Im angry. Sometimes I get angry about things that I have no right to be angry about. I think Im just not used to being good. Usually I go out and get f*cked up or I go out and beat the shit outta someone. I guess Im just naturally self destructive. Tommorrow I have to go to the dentist and crap. He better give me pain killers or something or I'll shit everywhere. Im so hungry but it hurts to much to eat. I made up my work schedule for next week and it's awesome as hell. I love working 11-7. Im not opening and Im not closeing. Yay.

Jess is awesome

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 14:52:03 GMT

So last night me and Jess went to the pet store and stuff and got some mice for lady.
She ate two of them at once which was awesome. My snake is gonna be a beast. I can't wait til she gets bigger its gonna be awesome. I just gotta get her some different bedding and we'll be fine.

Today we have to get liam another mouse cause the one we got him before was to small. I feel bad cause jess got so upset about not feeding the snakes enough. I tried to tell her before this happened but whatever. I still love her :).

So now I want to get myself a lizard for my room at my house. I want a monitor of some sort. Something big but not to big either cause then I wouldnt be able to keep it at my house. lol. I don't know what I want yet but I'll figure something out when I get the money to do it. Jess is sitting behind me reading this already so I guess theres no point on really posting this since I post it for her to read anyway LMAO!!@

YeS!

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 15:24:03 GMT

Waking up in the morning next to the most beautiful girl makes me the happiest guy in the world.

Yep.

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 21:00:15 GMT

So I just got back from work. The whole Lead thing is working out good for me now. Some lady today gave me a ten dollar tip just for telling her about fax machines. lol. Weird. Jess doesnt get out of work til 9 uh! That sux. Atleast I have Sunday and Monday off. Thats pretty cool. I'm bored and don't know what to do. I have work tommorrow at 8:30 til 4:00. Jess said she might go hang out with Dan Lenard. Blah that sux. I really don't feel right about her hanging out with him but maybe its cause he sux or maybe I know he hits on Jess sometimes so whatever. If he tries anything I'll just gut him and hang him with his own entrails and set him on fire. Jess probably wouldnt tell me if he tried anything anyway cause she doesnt want me fighting so maybe I'll just hit him anyway and just assume he did lmao!! I miss Nick he was always fun to be angry around. Now he's got a band and stuff and is always busy with girls. That bites the wang. I love jess I don't know what I would do without her. I barely get to see her cause I work so much. Maybe I'll call Jackie or something today. I hope her new boy toy isnt one of those kids that won't let her hang out with me cause I'll hit him too lmao!! I'm so cranky lately and stressed out. People just bother me in general sometimes I just want to go back to Seaside or New York, but then I see Jess and remember why Im here. I feel really weird. I hope Im not to protective and one of those phsyco boyfriends that doesnt let their girlfriend talk or hang out with people. I mean there are certain people I don't like and would really be pissed if she hung out with them but thats mainly if they have any type of connection to Pete. LOL!! I heard Pete was talking shit with his bitch ass friend that was in the navy or something. What a Tool. Pete really doesnt know me that well or my friends. Guns aint shit. LMAO!! I remember when he told Jess that he was going to come to my house LMAO!! Well I know where he fucking works know so I don't think he'd really like it if I showed up at his job with a couple of friends and crowbars. He doesnt even make me angry anymore it just makes me laugh. I guess I am crazy. Whatever not that big of a surprise. We'll Im going to go kill things on the computer now.

Have you ever loved someone so much you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they are your heart
And you know you are their armour
And you will destroy anyone who will try to harm her
But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you
And everything you stand for turns on you to spite you
What happens when you become the main source of her pain

And when I’m gone, just carry on don’t worry,
rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I’m lookin’ down on you smiling
And I didn’t feel a thing so baby don’t feel no pain, just smile back

Hurt

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 19:36:05 GMT

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

People Talk to Much Shit.

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 19:25:25 GMT

I don't know why people say shit that they can't back up. I would never cheat on jess. If someone thinks otherwise then they should come and say something to me. Instead of going to my girlfriend and saying something. Next time I here something about these guys saying shit Im gonna burn their fucking lives to the ground. No more talk just action. If you motherfuckers wanna come and "beat" me up then try it cause I'll knock both of you to the ground and not think twice about it. If you wanna talk guns to then lets talk guns cause that aint shit. Some people think their tough and shit and they've probably havent even seen a real gun except for on TV.

Im also sick of hearing about these assholes. Every other fucking day I hear something. Its like I got rid of him but didnt. I don't care what you have done with him I don't care to hear about anything your've done with him. I just don't wanna fucking hear about him. Certain things are really starting to mess things up for me and Im done with dealing with it. It makes me wanna do drugs.

So anyway Im at home now. Jess dropped me off to go see Divinity Destroyed. Gay! I would never waste my time and money to go see such a shitty fucking band like them. I'd rather get punched in the face. I don't know. Fuck this!!